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Ha, she’s the only girl I’d ever date.. Is that even okay?

Tell me why you would do that to me. Why you would come back, make me happy, then take my heart and drag it by a string? You knew I loved you, but I guess you put that all aside as you stared into her eyes. I don’t mind that you’re with her, but tell me, why did you come back to me first? What did I ever do to you?

“I never told you everything” I can’t. I never thought I’d ever feel the way I did for you, so you can’t blame me for keeping my guard up .”I’m thinking of the worst things that I could say to you” because I’m not used to showing my true feelings. I’m too scared of being the only one. I’m never the one to fall first, but I did & I don’t regret it. “I’m losing every single memory along the way” because you’re not here, so what’s the point? It sucks because you don’t realize how much I’d do & what I’d do for you, but you’ll probably realize it sooner or later.. “I’m scared to death that everything that you’d said to me was just a lie until you left” because everything seemed too real, too good.  I hate not knowing how you feel or what’s going on with you, or even if you think about me as much as I think about you, but everything is pointing to us and “a future” , I hope I’m not thinking too much or steering myself in the wrong direction, I’m hoping a sign will come up soon on this lonely road.